32. I never told you this, but..

I don't like taking pain killers because it reminds me of overdosing.

I don't like having to tell people this every time they say I should take them so I try and say that it's not that bad a pain.

It is.

But I don't like remembering when I sat with 150 of them pushed out of the foil and tried to swallow as many as I could before I could chicken out.

I also don't like it when people boast about how strong and good pain medication is. I think it's crass, but then most people don't know my history and wouldn't know it was a unthoughtful thing to boast about.