48. I never told you this, but...

I wrap myself without you every night in our blanket 

47. I never told you this, but...

I loved this film but missed you so much watching it without you. 

C'est le temps de l'amour,
Le temps des copains et de l'aventure.
Quand le temps va et vient,
On ne pense a rien malgre ses blessures.
Car le temps de l'amour
C'est long et c'est court,
Ca dure toujours, on s'en souvient.

On se dit qu' a vingt ans on est le roi du monde,
Et qu' éternellement il y aura dans nos yeux
Tout le ciel bleu.

C'est le temps de l'amour,
Le temps des copains et de l'aventure.
Quand le temps va et vient,
On ne pense a rien malgre ses blessures.
Car le temps de l'amour
Ca vous met au coeur
Beaucoup de chaleur et de bonheur.

Un beau jour c'est l'amour et le coeur bat plus vite,
Car la vie suit son cours
Et l'on est tout heureux d'etre amoureux.

C'est le temps de l'amour,
Le temps des copains et de l'aventure.
Quand le temps va et vient,
On ne pense a rien malgre ses blessures.
Car le temps de l'amour
C'est long et c'est court,
Ca dure toujours, on s'en souvient.

46. I never told you this, but...

We had our lives, we had our pasts, we found each other, we fell apart. Our pain pushed us away from all the good things that could have been. Accepting is defeat. I will always think of you as my love, my best friend. I will never lose sight of you. I love you just the way you are.


http://vimeo.com/38414965

45. I never told you this, but..

I am surviving.

I suppose to the outside view, it looks pretty lame.

Like a non-existence.

Like not surviving.



But I really am.

And the tactics I use, subconsciously, without planning to, are:



hibernation

wanting to sleep and rest and be alone

play games

be in another world



all these things help me manage the intense feeling of being alive when I'm sad.

It's not glamourous

ambitious

cool

very productive





but it means I'm still alive, when otherwise I might be selfharmingorthinkingofsuicideorphysicallyrunningaway.

I'm sorry you don't want to be with someone that spends time alone making made-up people wallpaper their made-up houses with their made-up money. I feel very ashamed.

44. I never told you this, but..

we DID have it all.

You have my heart and soul in your hand.

43. I never told you this, but..

I'm gay for you. :) 
Happy non-valentines day frau xxxx

42. I never told you this, but...

frau,
we
are
going
to
be
just
fine.

We have all the ingredients of such a beautiful relationship. With a few tweaks of the recipe, which will just come with time and practise, we'll be harmony central. i love you more than french toast.

(sorry the number took a while to edit)

41. I never told you this, but..

I feel so content that we are back in each other's lives. Although I felt quite confident about returning to London and trying to get on with my life without you, I think deep down I knew they'd always be a part of me missing without you; aching, longing for you and me to have what we used to have. And then you reached out. I'm so very glad you did. I really feel like this could be so much better the second time around. 
I love you x