40. I never told you this, but..

I bought a card for you and I've lost it. It had koalas on it, I think it fell out of my bag or someone took it. It made me sad. Today I missed you a lot whilst I was walking around New Zealand. It feels longer than a week that I've been away. I sit and think about how things were just before I left and how unsettled I felt when I arrived in Australia. About what happened between us and the week before I left how you wanted to just be alone. It's hard to imagine being in London now feeling how I felt that week, being far away makes things so much clearer. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. I sit and think about what you're up to and how you're feeling about everything. I sit and wonder what it will be like when I return and I get a pang of nerves in my stomach. 

39. I never told you this, but..

This is one of my all time favourite songs. It seems quite fitting for us right now, especially as I'm on the other side of the world 10,500 miles away. 
Love to you from Australia. x